Hah, it's so idiotic why he doesn't just TELL ME I'm nothing. Wait I forgot, he never tells me anything anyway. I might aswell be just a friend to him, he treats me as one anyway LMAO, he doesn't tell any of his friends anything and he doens't tell me anything. I love him but he just doesn't do the small thigns that matter like sending a random sms in the middle of the day just saying "I love you" or one day suprising me with a bunch of hand-picked flowers or a hand written letter or message or a pinic basket with pinic food. I want things like that to happen with out needing me to ask him. I wish I was something important to him. I want to be something important to him.

I'm like nothing to alot of people. No one notices how much I do for them. I don't think they'd evern care if I left, not like I can; I don't think I've gotten into anyschools. I want, fuck why do I always want so many thigns and alot I can't have? Fuck it. FUCK IT.

xox much love.