Yes, it really has been on week that my boyfriend broke up with me, leaving me. I saw it coming, but I didn't want him to, he made me feel like I WAS worth something, that I was NEEDED in this life. He treated me very well and he cared for me, like no one else has before.

It was my fault and I know it. I wish I could reverse time and change it. I'm sorry, I know that he'll like me"So called bestfriend" because she's always happy and yeah. I want to meant something to this world. I want to leave a mark on a person that will last forever (in a good way).

I thought he was the one, I thought we'd one day get married or go uni together and have lunch. I mean I've never loved someone like this before, the other were merely a schoolgirl crush. I loved him, I asked him out. I fucken loved him the most someone could love another. The other times I guess it was either my lust or my naive-ness. I fucken loved him, I wrecked it. I was the one who wrecked it all.

I fucken really loved him, I wish this could turn out like the the movies with "10 things I hate about you" or something. I wish I was something to him, I don't even think I mean anything to him. And I tell ghim "I've stabbed my self, do you care" I dont think he realises that I HAVE infact stabbed myself, he thinks it's merely a thing to ask him.

I wrote this to a friend. But yeah, I can't trust anyone now.